Starting Fresh

Ahhhh there's nothing better than a good fresh start, to cover up all the crappy stuff you wrote when you were young and dumb. A lot of people like to erase their younger pasts, but since I think that all our youthful blips and imperfections are what make us awesome and beautiful I'm just going to start yet another blog and keep all my other silly ones up.
You can scroll through them, laugh and even cringe at them whenever you want.

But for now I'm on a new journey and I need to write about it. So here's kind of the deal. Eight years ago, I moved to Madrid, Spain from Geneva, Switzerland. For anyone who has actually lived in Geneva instead of those who just assume its for rich brats(you are partly right) you know that life there is overpriced, cold and boring as fuck. So moving to Spain was a dream come true. I had great friends, went to a cool laid back College and didn't give a damn about my future. Life was blissful. All I cared about was, partying, boys and shopping. Since I'm not a total dits, I still got through school with pretty good grades and enjoyed the occasional intellectual conversation. But let's just say I discovered "Spanish culture" through other activities and never actually got to know my own talents and passions.

Then I turned 22 and shit hit the fan. Two guys I was simultaneously dating, simultaneously dumped me. My mom passed away of breast cancer. My house in S
witzerland got sold. My best friend and I had a terrible fight and like in all great divorces, I took the cat and she took...well, the rest of my friends. And of course....I graduated.

I know what you're thinking...what's wrong with graduating? Ahahahah you poor naive undergrad. Everything is wrong with graduating. Fuck puberty, graduating is the most awkward and uncomfortable change that you will ever go through in your life. Especially when its coupled with losing your mom,guys and friends.

Its like, you just went through the best years of your life. You partied hard, saved the world and dated as much as you wanted without being judged and now you are ejected into this place where nobody actually gives a shit about who you are, how "cool" you are or how attractive you think you are. And yes the happier you are the more eager they are to exploit and tear you down. Sounds kind of harsh doesn't it.

So what did I do, how did I survive? I was always driven by two things in my happiest and darkest times: Knowledge and some sort of evolving spirituality. I never had very clear what it was I believed in but I knew that had something to do with being light, happy and having a god heart. All of that was tested many times after I graduated because the world is indeed full of terrible people who love to exploit the good.

They like to believe that the good are "weak" and that they must be stronger because they are so proud to exploit them. However, they fail to understand that their mere need to exploit others prophesses to a "need" or dependence, meaning that these so-called strong people actually lack energy and therefore are dependent on the energy of others. Whereas good people, like to help others. They have an abundance of energy and do not lose their source even when they give it away. So therefore good people have plenty of energy(even if they're mellow or introverted) and bad people are are running on E.

According to my good friend Google the definition of weak is

weak

wiːk/

adjective

1. 

lacking the power to perform physically demanding tasks; having little physical strength or energy.

Therefore, if you are a person who feels the need to lower other people's energy vibration or exploit their positive energy in order to feel energetic or "good about yourself" you are by definition Weak.

So that is what this Blog is basically about. I am here to unmask the false pretence that the good, those that fight for equality are dumb, weak, hippy dippy or bitter SJW's that are inefficient and unproductive. Im also here to use the best defence or weapon I've got: My Mind, to unpack why it's time for the arrogant and character disturbed  to have several seats. The good are a force to be reckoned with.

But before we get into all of that, let's go back to how I got through my darkest hour. I had a lot on my plate, grief, social rejection and self esteem issues. I remember being lost but I don't remember suffering as much as one would assume. The key to all of it was always being able to let go. I had to let go of my younger ego and dreams of grandeur and accept that my actual destiny was far greater and of course more tangible and realistic than any of my narcissistic fantasies.

So after spinning around in circles, getting tired of silly boys and serial monogamy, trying to be a masseuse, writer and god knows what else....I found my calling. It was always kind of there in the back of my head whining at me. But I was always like "aaaah too haard, I caaaaaan't, too much wooooooork." But then Rihanna was like "work work work work work work. "  So I was like ok fine might as well go back to school and become a psychologist, I mean gawsh what else am I gunna do!? Soo yeah.

Then everything actually magically fell into place. That and I stopped dating douchebags. Btw, note to all of you(men and women). If there is a member of the opposite sex in your life who claims to love you and always tells you that you have problems and are mentally crippled, they and most other people you date are the problem. You need to DUMP their ass, get ride of them and detox yourself from relationships in general. We'll get into that later on in the blog. Now I know I sound like one of those hardcore ppl that just broke up with someone, actually Ive been single for almost two years. That coupled with school has been the BEST decision Ive ever made in my life. I don't know why being single gets such a bad rep, it really is the best, now I know why guys have been doing it for so long!

Ever notice how the how being in a relationship is a hiatus from being single for men, but being single is a hiatus from being in a relationship for women.

Priorities Ladieeees, let's get our shit together!